The key to moving yourself into experiential understanding of your power to be, do, and have what you’ve intended is practice. With any practice you are doing, to achieve a change of some kind (e.g. a change in behavior, a change in energy, a change in what you repeatedly experience) consistency and repetition is a must for a period of time. Deliberate creation, conscious creation, the ability to intentionally and co-creatively bring about desired outcomes, is a skill you cultivate like any other, and like any other skill it requires that you practice and refine your process as you learn more about how you do you, how you do your reality, and how you can do both of those more optimally, consciously, intentionally, effectively. 

Like anything else that requires care and maintenance, your personal energy field requires attention and awareness to be the most optimal and efficient system it can be. Accumulating unprocessed or stagnant energy in the form of suppressed emotions impacts the ability of your energy field to be its most coherent.